I'm Happy

Happy.

That's the only word I can actually use to express the feelings I feel. 

Okay fine - blessed and happy.

Is it possible for one to be this happy without wondering about all the what ifs and buts, later on the day? 

Cause, hands down. If I thought I knew what was happiness all about before this, I was damn hell wrong.

So many things happened for me, this year. Good things. Bad things. Some I regret, and some I don't. Some I wished to have changed. Some that are yet to be changed. 

I've believe that people walks into your life for a purpose. A said purpose, to be well made done for, and leave. That's where the frustration begins. Many have walked out of my life without a reason. And at that same very moment, unexpected people have come around to be by my side. 

Appropriately saying this without any hidden agenda, I'm just glad those who chose to walk away - did what they did. Because if it weren't for them, I wouldn't have learned anything and would've been stuck in that same cycle, for goodness how long more.

Not being shady, but being honest.

It is true - you'll never see me being nice to you ever, if one tries to trigger the other side of me. I sometimes hold grudges. Heck, I've hold one for years that I struggle to find happiness. But because of that certain someone, I'm here today. Content with the one man, I truly adore and love.

And don't let me begin with my friends. The ample amount of friends that I've made this year, literally fills in the hole of all good friends I thought that would've stayed. They showed me true friendship, and made me believe the saying you don't need to know the person a lifetime to know they're worth it - you just know. So yes. I just know.

And someone wise once told me as well, not everybody is your friend. And that is true as well. Beware.

So, the point of this post is for me to say how happy I am with how my life is going at the moment. Still expecting some news, though and that's going to be a little flumsy for me. However, I will be okay. 

What I have learned is, bad news brings you right up immediately. Well, nothing is perfect. Except for one. You.

Thank you for making me believe that I can be happy again.

-grace